Finding My Way Back Home

Recently I had felt like my life was careening out of control. I felt like my marriage was falling apart and the distance was growing. I knew something had to give, but did I know what that something was? No. 

I have always prided myself on being a good Christian Woman who love The Lord. I went to church every week and preform my callings and duties to the best of my ability. I prayed nightly as a family, a couple and my individual prayers. I could not see that not only was I letting my relationship with my husband slip and fall apart. But I was also neglecting my relationship with my Father in Heaven and The Savior. It took my life long friend asking me the hard questions and pointing out my lack, that made me see.

She told me some things that really impacted me that day. First she said if you neglect The Lord how can you expect him to give you all the blessings that he is just waiting to give you? How can you expect him to hold up his end of a covenant if you cant be bothered to hold up or even try your best to hold up your end? Then she said that not every marriage is perfect and that if I could get myself right with The Lord and ask for forgiveness of the neglect I had been showing and make a true change in my life, that then The Lord would help me to heal my life and marriage by re-centering to Him again.

I am so blessed to have her in my life because I don't know many if any people who would have laid down those kinds of truths for me. It isn't that I didn't already know these things but I had forgotten and gotten caught up in the things and problems of the world. That same day I decided that I needed to start keeping a journal and not just any write down your day journal but a scripture and prayers journal. Not to say that I don't talk about my day in my entry  but I always begin with a scripture/written prayer and end with the things and people I need to remember to pray for and the things that I am thankful for. I know that it has been an amazing tool for me and a blessing in my journey back to a happy and healthy relationship with My Father in Heaven and My Savior. 

I know that The Lord will provide a way in all things and in all trials that he gives to us, that we may return to Him and see his hand and blessing even in the darkest hours.

Praying and Trusting,

Jenna